GET BACK WITH GOD
|Jeslani and Tanya
Hi, my name is Tanya Carr and I would like to share with you my testimony. Years ago I became dependent on drugs and alcohol, using them to try to make me happy and to take away the sadness I was feeling on a daily basis. Instead, it became worse which caused me to start using more and more. I also wasn’t making much money at the job I had worked at for years, thinking if I worked a little harder I could earn better pay. When that did not happen, I became even more depressed and used more drugs and alcohol.
One day my son Jeslani, God bless his soul, looked at me and told me “Mom, you are beginning to look ugly; you used to be the most beautiful woman to me.” I looked at him, dropped my head, went to my bedroom, and cried because I didn’t want to cry in front of him. Even that was not a good enough message for me and I continued to use drugs to mask my sadness. I began to feel that sooner or later something was going to seriously happen to me and I began thinking about death a lot and, yes, sometimes even suicide. I simply just did not like myself.
It’s funny how even though the majority of the time you’re around friends and family, they don’t want to see the faults you have or the danger you’re headed into because they love you so much. Well, danger came when I ended up in the emergency room on top of a gurney being defibrillated because I had a massive heart attack. I was gone for five minutes. I woke up to a team of doctors and nurses standing over me, telling me to keep talking. I woke up talking about the pain I felt; as days went by I began thinking there had to be a better way. My cousin, Zeibbed Freemen, came to the hospital to visit and told me that God was giving me another chance to make things right.
I woke up one bright Sunday morning and said I’m going take everything to the Lord and let Him deal with it. The Lord dealt with me in a fashion that no one ever could. I started gaining new knowledge through scripture and sermons and began reading my Bible more often. The first scripture that I memorized was Matthew 6:33, to seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. God said all things shall be added, not half, not one-fourth, but all things. I have been drug- and alcohol-free ever since. The Lord has shown me new directions; I went to Canton City Schools and got training for a new job to earn better pay. I’m not going to complain about anything, because I know the Lord has so much more in store for me, as long as I keep diligently seeking Him. Oh, by the way, I have that new job!
My son and I have a better relationship with each other, because now I am beautiful again. Now I’m armed with the most powerful weapon of all “the armor of God.” When I come up against the enemy of my flesh, the enemy of my job, or just everyday life turmoils, I have something to fight with. Trust me, I still have a whole lot of fine tuning to do, but I know God will tune me until I am perfectly tuned. I give the praise and honor to my God and Lord Jesus Christ for giving me a chance at a new life, new friends, my church family, and a new set of eyes to see through that’s not dark anymore. I thank you, thank you, thank you, God and even that is not enough for what He has done for me!
You can see from Tanya's story that It's not as hard as you might think to get back with God. After all, He's been waiting for you for awhile. His arms are open wide, just ready to give you a great big hug and love you as the missing child who's come home again.
All you have to do is say "Lord, I've missed You. I'm sorry I've strayed away. I've let my hurts, other people, or other things become either my stumbling block or my god. I want You back in my life again. Help me to put You first and let's start all over again."
Then become a member of a Bible-based Church, such as Antioch, where you can learn how to be all that God planned for you to be. Since many of us have "gotten back with God", we will joyfully celebrate that step and walk the road ahead with you. So don't wait -- Come to Antioch!
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